The trouble is, the working...raising a family..doing everything. life...doesn't really prepare you for retirement. It's like you were racing towards a brick wall or an abyss, and then you are THERE!
I think I could have given this more thought when I was working, but who had time. I was at Blue Cross about 10 hours and day, commuting 2 hours, and trying to make sense of me the rest of the time. Luckily Bob was taking care of the food business (which I do not like to deal with) and necessary shopping.
You think that it all will unwind peacefully into the FUTURE. But here I am, 60 years old, still feeling like I'm 24. Or maybe 44. With no clue as to how to go forward. This Florida thing has sort of 'distilled' the problem. I could have sat home in Ellsworth, forever, waiting to get older and eventually die, but I didn't. I'm here in South Florida, and I need to make new friends and find new things to do, just like when I really was 24 and moved to Minneapolis.
Today, at least, I worked out and took a spinning class. I have always found new friends and a new social order through fitness things. I'm hoping this will still work for me, even though I am old. Maybe not so old.
I like how you put it, you were racing toward an abyss and then you're THERE! This is exactly how I feel about becoming an adult. You grow up knowing that someday you'll be an adult, get married, and have kids and then all of a sudden you're THERE! How did that happen? :)
ReplyDeleteI love how you are at least trying to find the answers to the "now what?" question instead of just letting it all pass by. You've worked so hard and deserve to do a little exploring and figuring it all out. Fitness seems like a good start. At least with a good workout, if you don't meet people, you get some feel good endorphins!
Love you